Sunday, March 20, 2011

Changes

Wow.. I can't believe I haven't written since October.. I guess I skipped right over the holidays and kept on going. We have a lot of changes in the next several weeks.. exciting but scary! Hailey is excited about being a big sister.. she wasn't thrilled when she found out she was having a brother.. but she is happy now and told me that she doesn't like boys because they are yucky but she still loves Tristan :)
This pregnancy is definitely different than my first.. and I dont like it! Don't get me wrong, I am happy to be pregnant and wouldn't change it for anything.. but does it have to be so difficult!? Mike did give me props the other day though, he told me the first time I complained long before 30 weeks so I guess Im doing good at hiding it :) Another exciting thing happening in our life is that we bought a house! We are so happy! Its bittersweet knowing that we are setting for sure in Maryland and there is no chance moving home to Ohio... but we also know that this is right for us and for our family that we are creating. The house is perfect for us. Has a great yard which is not easy at all to find here. Funny that everything we looked at in a house revolved around what would be best for the kids. The yard, a place to play, their bedrooms, the school district... sure is true that everything changes once you have kiddos.. it ALL revolves around them! Its a comfy home that doesnt need any fixing up except cosmetic things that we want to change to make it "ours" and Im looking forward to those projects! I'll definitely keep on track with this blog from now on.. I dont want to forget any of these moments.. I like going back and reading for myself to remember the little things. Hope everyone is enjoying their first day of spring!

Sunday, October 3, 2010

We have been blessed!

WE ARE PREGNANT! I can not believe it and I could not be more happy! We have been trying, wanting, and praying for this for about 18 months now and for it to be real just boggles my mind. Not everyone knows how hard this has been, and I've kept a lot of it bottled up and its been hard, but I want to write this all down and remember how much I want this baby. I've had health problems for the past year that have kept me from losing weight and most importantly getting pregnant. My dr was ready to start fertility treatments with me next month, but I knew we would never have the money to be able to do that. So I settled and was happy just to have our little family of 3, which I love more than anything! After I was sure I wasnt going to get pregnant I was planning my life with Hailey in school and different volunteer things I have been wanting to do. God is so funny sometimes with the way he makes things work out! Getting all of the foster care stuff together has been a lot harder than I thought it would be, but now thats going to wait! So many things in our life is changing and I couldnt be more thrilled, scared, excited and just content. My heart is happy.

Sunday, September 12, 2010

1st day of many 1st days


As many of you know, Hailey started preschool this week. This was a big transition for us, bigger for me than her I think :) We were lucky enough to go on a final mini vacation the days before school (but we will save that for another blog.) Mike just got some more vacation days so I was lucky enough to have him take off work and join me in taking our baby to school. Yes, I still same baby.. and she will always be my baby.. even when she has babies of her own. This is an argument we get into often.. she insists she's a big girl.. I insist she's my baby. I did NOT want to go alone on her first day, I would have been the mom sobbing the walk back her car.
We dropped Hailey off, took lots of pictures and headed to starbucks.. it was the longest 3 hours of my life! I couldnt help to think of what my baby was doing, what she was learning, if she'd gotten into trouble yet, if she'd made friends and most importantly if she was having fun. I want this to be a good experience for the both of us!
After a looong 3 hours we headed back to pick her up. I think when we saw eachother it was the biggest smile I had to see her since I met her 3 years ago! I was so excited to see my baby and to hear about her day. She gave us big hugs and told us how much fun she had. When other kids were handing their mommys and daddys pictures they had colored I asked where Haileys was.. she told me she didnt want to color, she wanted to play instead.. oh dear.
We got into the car and played the question game. If there was a question to be asked about her day, I asked it! I asked if any of the kids cried when their parents left, she told me "no, but I cried." I kind of laughed it off because I didnt believe her, but she insisted she did. I finally asked her why she cried and she told me "I needed you!, duh!" We all laughed,and my heart was full. Even a big girl needs their mommy, and I need her just as much :)

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

The Happiest Place on Earth!



I can not believe it has taken me 4 weeks to write this! But I want to make sure I write this now because I want to remember as much as I can! So... if you're not up for reading a long post today.. stop now haha! On May 19 we left for Florida to take Hailey to Disney World.. but Mike doesn't want me to forget that this was also his first time! Maryland weather wasn't so nice so to arrive in sunny Florida with Mickey Mouse could not have came at a better time! We had every hour of every day planned out.. not much time for rest or relaxation, but it was well worth it. The first day was probably my favorite day. I had envisioned Hailey walking into Magic Kingdom and just lighting up when she saw Cinderellas castle, mind you she had been talking about seeing the castle for months, well.... this didn't go exactly as planned. On the bus ride from the hotel to Magic Kingdom Hailey passed out, Im not talking little cat nap.. I mean could not wake her up she was so tired passed out! We walked around for a while and noticed the princesses were putting on a show in front of the castle. She decided to wake up long enough to get a glimpse then wanted back in the stroller. As we were walking I saw a store called "Princess Boutique." Obviously I had to go in.. and oh my goodness was Hailey in heaven! The store was awesome. They had every princess gown with all of the accessories available. Gowns, shoes, tiara's, wands.. everything! When Hailey found the Ariel gown and just hugged it grandma and grandpa couldn't resist and of course had to get it for her. She was so pretty! They even had professional pictures in the back where the little girls could get their pictures taken after getting dressed up. After being dressed as Ariel we decided it was time to go meet her! Hailey was starstruck.. I would compare it to me meeting George Clooney or Brad Pitt haha. Her eyes just lit up. I love how kids that age have no concept of fantasy and reality.. it just makes it that more magical for them.
Over the next few days we went to Animal Kingdom, Epcot, Hollywood studios and back to Magic Kingdom for the last day. Animal Kingdom was really cool too. We saw all kinds of animals that I've never seen before and learned a lot too.
One of the best days was when we decided it was too hot at the park and we had walked around enough and we should just go chill at the pool. Hailey spent most of the time in the baby pool but me and Mike wanted to go down the water slide and of course Hailey had to watch. We went down quite a few times and after watching us Hailey wanted to go as well. So we put a life jacket on her and she went down on my lap.. the lifeguard didnt say anything but he didnt look happy with me either. I didnt want to get into trouble so I had Mike take her down again haha. This time the lifeguard told us that she was not allowed to go on our laps. Soooo.. we asked Hailey if she wanted to go by herself. She was excited and said she was a "big girl" and could do it. The whole way up the stairs to the slide Mike continued asking her if she was sure.. her reply "I got this daddy." My mom, Tom and I were waiting for her at the bottom of the slide. Once again, Mike asked.. "are you sure?" "yes daddy, I got this" and there she went down the tall winding slide. The poor kid was flipping and turning all directions down that slide and finally came rushing to us head first. My motherly instinct should have told me to grab her and comfort her.. but no.. I laughed hysterically and typing this I am laughing again. It may not be so funny when you're reading this.. but I promise you, it was absolutely hilarious in person. If we can't laugh at our kids and ourselves who can we laugh at right??
One of the nights we came back from the park early because we had a dinner date with the princesses! It was at the Grand Floridian, which is a gorgeous hotel at Disney. We ate a great dinner and met Cinderella and her step sisters and step mother.. Hailey did NOT like the step mother.. she played the part well. She wouldn't crack a smile or be friendly at all.
So the last day we had breakfast with Mickey and friends. That was another highlight. Every main Disney character was there and came to every table to take pictures and they were just fun and acted silly which had Hailey giggling the whole time. That night we were back at Magic Kingdom and Hailey got to meet all of the fairies including Tinkerbell. She LOVES Tinkerbell. Right before the fireworks started Tink flew from the castle into the sky.. and a month later she still looks in the sky for her.
I have been on a lot of great vacations and have appreciated and had fun on each and every one of them.. but this one tops it for me. I've realized that it does not get any better than seeing such happiness and magic in a child's eyes. We are so thankful for my mom and Tom for taking us on this trip.. its something hopefully Hailey remembers forever!

Friday, May 7, 2010

"We make a living by what we get, we make a life by what we give"

"Nobody can do everything, but everyone can do something"

We've been thinking a lot lately about "dreams." We all have dreams as we are growing up. My dreams have always been pretty simple; get married, have babies, and be fortunate enough to help those in need. I've gotten married, I've had a baby.. hopefully we will have more, and I've always done what I can to help friends and family. But lately I've been having this urge to do more. I'm not fortunate enough to have loads of money to give to charities or those less fortunate, but I do have other ways of helping. Soooo.... after much consideration and conversations late at night we have decided to do foster care! I know what some of you are thinking.. Im crazy! And that may be true... but I couldn't be more excited about it! This is a special type of foster care that only cares for newborn babies from the time they leave the hospital until they get adopted. Normally you will have an infant for around a month. Its not that I have anything against fostering older children.. but at this time of our lives, I dont think we would be good for that. Those children need more attention than I would be able to give them.. maybe when Hailey is older we will think about that. I'm in the process of getting certified now and hopefully we will be ready for the babies by the middle of summer! Looking forward to hearing thoughts and opinions! But first I want to share another quote;

"This is the true joy in life - being used for a purpose recognized by yourself as a mighty one; being thoroughly worn out before you are thrown on the scrap heap; being a force of nature instead of a feverish selfish little clod of ailments and grievances complaining that the world will not devote itself to making you happy." ~George Bernard Shaw

Saturday, March 6, 2010

Preschool!



After a lot of thought and consideration we've decided to enroll Hailey in preschool! This is not an easy decision for me, because I love being with her all day everyday but its just another stepping stone for the both of us. This will be the first of many! It is a christian preschool that is connected to the Lutheran church just down the road. Mike, Hailey and I got to meet with a few of the teachers, the secretary and the Pastor and I had good feelings from everyone there. Hailey got a tour of the school and she didn't want to leave! She loved all of the crafts and toys in every classroom. When we went back to the office to sign her up she was begging to go to the classroom with the teachers.. that made me feel good. She will be going Tuesdays and Thursdays from 9-12. This will give me a chance to do the things at home that normally take time away from her so the rest of the day I can devote my time and attention to her, because that's what I want to do anyways! Wish us luck as we venture on this new journey! Oh yeah.. does this mean we get to go school shopping?!?! I think it does!

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Happy Anniversary!


Wow, can you believe we've been married 2 years?!?! I sure cant! I'm starting to realize that time is really my enemy. Just means that we are getting older and hopefully wiser :) When I was younger and would think about marriage, anniversary's, valentines day, and all of those other days that are supposed to be romantic I always thought I'd be going on vacations or candlelit dinners or something equally enjoyable. Well, to my surprise, our "romantic" evening tonight will consist of cuddling on the couch, maybe ordering a pizza and watching a movie together.. and I couldn't ask for anything more! Here's to many more years!